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Kill me and eat the ashes and—
Oh My God I Am Not Joking,
I Am Never Joking When I Say It Hurts—make me
disappear. Make me anything else.

I Am Too Sensitive To Live And Too Stubborn To Die.
I Am Too Swollen To Live And Too Dense To Die.
I Am A Shard Of Glass. Don't Let Me Get In Your Eye.
I Am A Cancerous Mass, So Tell Me Goodbye.

I Am Never Getting Better.
There Is No Better For Me.

I'd do it if I had the nerve and
I Think That's Why I Love People
When I Believe They Could End Me In One Blow. Make me disappear. Make me a fond memory.

I Am Too Broken To Live And Too Useful To Die.
I Am Too Selfish To Live And Too Needy To Die.
I Am A Shard Of Glass. Don't Let Me Get In Your Eye.
I Am A Cancerous Mass, So Tell Me Goodbye.

I Could Be Anything And Still
I'd Be Ruined

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from Lies I Tell Myself About Myself, released December 7, 2018
Lyrics and Melody: Bre Kidman
Music: Bre Kidman and MrGadget

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Bee Kay Esq. Portland, Maine

Bee Kay Esq. is a US Senate candidate, attorney, & rad fat queer performance artist. Lies I Tell Myself About Myself, the debut album, moves through the darkest moment before the dawn in recovery from sexual violence. With producer/collaborator MrGadget, Bee Kay Esq. uses inhuman instruments to give voice to human vulnerability. It's for people who wanna rock out with their existential dread out. ... more

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